Monday, December 28, 2009

a childhood nightmare..

When I was 6 years old my father is the main cause of my everyday nightmare.
Since my mom is working on abroad, my father was the one who taking care of me and my two brothers.

One time, while i am on a deep sleep..
there's something attacked me between my legs. I thought it was a tinny wood, it hurts me in pain. Then, I felt the liquid coming out between my legs. I can't open my eyes.. I'm scared to see what that thing hurting me. The tinny thing attacking me continuously. I wanna shout! but the pain blocking my voice.

When i decided to open my eyes and it was so dark and i can't clearly see who's causing my pain. All I can see is a hand, a huge hand that owned by a man, i think. But the aroma of that person is quite familiar with me. A smell of a drunk man, a man that i used to be with? since i was a little baby angel.. a smell of my DAD??

The next day.. I acted like it was a normal day. My dad serves our breakfast then talking to me like there's nothing happen.

I am just 6 years old at that time and i don't know the real reason why my dad did that to me! and why me? why not doing it in others? why does he continuously doing it to me until I reached my age of 15. The last time He did that to me is.. when we're having a family vacation in his hometown. I thought my nightmare is end, but i was wrong! in the middle of the night his hands attacking me again.. :(

I don't know what to do. Until now my mom don't have any idea about this dark secrets of my dad. But I thank God! my mom and dad separated when I was 12 years old, I live now on my mom's side. Even though they are separated I don't have any intention to tell the nightmare I was suffering since I was 6 years old. I don't want my dad live in a small space of room, with a jail-mate itching each part of their body.

But that's not the end of my nightmare life when I was a child.. next time I will share all of my nightmare and pain from all horny fucking guys around me!! sorry for that vulgar word! I just can't control my self!

NOTE: No one knows about this childhood nightmare of mine.. that's why i made this blog so that I can share it to any one! and also to less the pain and to take away the torn that stock on my heart!


edxaii said...

that's terrible! did your dad really doing that? i mean is your dad was the one who take your virginity?

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